what have i done.
what has become of me.
why am i so sensitive. why am i so stupid. why am i. if i were to shut up, this would have never had happened. i blame myself entirely. nobody else but me. know that im truly sorry. even if you dont see this.
i wasn't jealous, i was envious. if you think i hate her, think what you want but i sincerely dont. even if you think i dont deserve your friendship.
but it doesnt matter. what's done is done. one does not simply turn back time.
i hate lit art. okay sorry this had nothing to do with this post but yea. i hate it.
{im sorry for everything. im sorry for making you feel like shit. sorry for being a bitch. sorry for being typical alysha. sorry for letting you down. sorry for being this way. im sorry for ruining our friendship. im sorry for simply making your life a living hell.}
[i bet you wished you were in a nightmare. and that im just a stupid little m0nster that will disappear when you wake up.]
|you have every right to feel that way|
because im not good enough for her friendship, im not good enough for everyone's friendship. and mostly, im not good enough for yours. which pretty much says your friendship is one of a kind. you should be happy. honestly. seriously.
but there's a 75% chance that you wont see this post.
even if you do,
there's a 100% chance that you wont forgive me. because i understand that youre simply too tired for my shit.
im too upset. too angry with myself. might as well die and make your life and everyone else's easier.
just know that if you need someone, a ride home, or someone to vent your anger on, if you need, ill be here. always will be.
ok that sounded cheesy but idc because its true.
btw i bought fbt's today with banana she got blue and i got purple yay
ok bye gaiz.
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